My Journey Blog: 1
This Blog has taken me forever to get to for many reasons. First, it’s so freaking hard for me to write and my grammar totally sucks (no judging). Second, sharing my heart and being venerable, is not something that I am that good at.
So here is what I decided:
It’s important to me to express how I feel about boudoir, because I do this for you ladies. Part of not caring what people think about my body, is also not caring about what they think about my grammar. Yes, I desire to improve daily. Reality is, my voice, and my information is just too important to not put out there. I truly feel that stopping to reread, and then sending my blogs out to be proof read, only changes the tone of my voice. So... if improper grammar is something that bugs you then I advise you to stop reading right now, because this blog will likely drive you nuts. That is NOT my intent!
I been talking for months, about wanting to share something big with you. Literally, I have been mentioning this since NOVEMBER of 2017, and I am finally ready to share. I have decided to start my own loving my body journey. I know this may not seem like a big deal to you ladies but… Even for me it’s hard to love my body. In the last 5 years I have gained 100lbs, which is literally a whole new human being! This weight was gained because of many reasons, like health issues (getting old freaking sucks) and stress. I have been making excuses, I have been eating poorly and I stopped exercising. Through this weight gain, it has brought me many lows in self-esteem. It has also taught me that, no mater my weight is if I don’t start loving my body, then I never will.
I remember when I was 16, 17, and 18 living with a very unhealthy eating disorder. I looked fit and strong but I never thought I looked great or good enough. I was always picking apart my body and poking at things. In my 20s I had children and still got back to my regular size (almost right after children) and STILL.. No, love for my body. So, now I look back and think “When is this GOING TO STOP”. If I can’t love my body when I am looking amazing, will I ever? What is the point?
So I decided in November to start learning to love myself!
Since I take boudoir photos I figured the best way for me to learn to love myself, is to practice what I preach. I decided that while I am trying to get my body back to better health, I will take boudoir photos along the way. I don’t have a problem with being a bigger, curvy body! The reality is I am very unhealthy and continuing to live an unhealthy life style will be the end of me (high cholesterol and Blood Pressure is never a good thing).
Here it is Ladies the start to my journey to health. If you desire to follow along and encourage me, it is very welcomed.
A letter to my body:
Hey you, Thank you for holding me up the past few years. Thank you for not giving up on me! I want to thank you for giving me 2 beautiful little girls and for allowing me to birth them with no problems (and no medication). Thank you for being strong when I mentally felt weak, you never have failed me yet. I love you and I will learn to love more of you each and every day. Anna