Behind It all, She is suffering!
I want to first start this blog off by Thanking miss H. for being so vulnerable and sharing her story. Its my goal as a San Diego Boudoir Photographer to allow women to have a voice and part of doing this by allowing them to share their voice on my blog.
This is Miss H.’s Story:
“You always see these pictures on social media of women who are always so upbeat and outgoing, and you assume that they have it all together. But behind it all, you’d never know that she’s suffering inside. I was one of those women. I put myself a self-induced emotional hell this past year but always had a smile on my face and exuded a sense of strength.
It’s been a while since I’ve felt “right”. I have been in a state of limbo for a year, was fearing being alone, and was essentially lost. I emotionally attached myself to people that weren’t meant play that kind role in my life and when I “lost” them, I felt lost too.
I was in this exact place 4 years ago. It was a lot darker back then; sleepless nights fueled by fits of crying, induced by alcohol and the same fear of being alone.
Then recently I heard the quotes “Love will win” and “Everything always gets better”, I remembered that things DO eventually get better, but that all starts with me.
I’m finally able to put those fears of loneliness behind me and get myself back on the road to healing. I realize that even though I feel alone, I’m surrounded by family and friends who love me and support me through and through. Through them, I’m finally getting used to the idea of being alone. It’s not always easy but every day is a new day for me to learn more about myself and learn to feel good about being alone.
I’m learning to be more confident in myself and in my body. I’ve always been my biggest critic when it comes to my body. But now I’m taking better care of my body and making better choices. I’m finally able to embrace all my curves and stretch marks because they were a part of my journey.
The only way from here, is up. No matter how slow I go, I’m still climbing this mountain. There may be little flat stretches and small valleys, but eventually I’ll get to the top. “
XOXO~ Miss. H
You got this girl, You are ENOUGH, You are BEAUTIFUL, and Just KEEP going because you 100% have this. With every low comes a high so always just look up and keep your focus.